Thursday, August 11, 2011

Is this what I really want?

I sat on the bus this morning thinking about all my assignments, my work, varsity life etc and I wondered, is this really what I wanted?

Ok sure, I've kind of made a name for myself... I made a few fuck-ups (and a REALLY BIG one) but I think I've accomplished quite a bit... I have a job lined up at the end of the year (ok ok a three month contract, but I'm gonna work my ass off to stay there) and my journo course is almost over...

I'm not sure if its just me, but it seems everyone in my class is little bored by our classes... well except for edit and design :) Its the highlight of my week... I think it's because the kind of writing and the way I done things during my internship is so different... even some of the things our lecturers are teaching us is completely different... Maybe its because they are stuck in some kind of limbo and believe that journalism is the same from when they were journalists...

But I need to make one thing clear... I don't identify myself as a journalist... I don't really enjoy it that much... I like writing blogs, profiles, reviews shit like that but for some reason, this just isn't cutting out for me... maybe its just me being out of the work environment...

I realised this morning, while reading a book on murderers and suspects, that my passion for forensics is shooting back at me... unfortunately I can't study anything in forensics since my science mark is too low... #FML

But I think once my course is over, I think I should find a place that will offer a course in criminology, detective work anything in that sort of field... maybe I should enroll in the Police Academy and work my way up... 

As much as I love writing, I can't refuse my gut, my heart and my focus... I am meant to help people and I know by doing the work I am currently doing, I won't help a single soul...

Mr Lovelace out...

Monday, August 1, 2011

Gay and Single...Forever?

Gay and Single...Forever is the title of the book that I'm reading at the moment...

Very interesting read...

I ordered the book months ago on Kalahari, but never bothered to read it properly, and now that I'm back to using the trains every morning, I decided it to read again... Only this time a lot better...

First of all, the book is very easily relatible, but at the same time not relatible at all...

The book is about the author's search of couplehood or the real meaning behind it... Steven Bereznai is the author... and he's a bladdy good one at that...

Steven Bereznai - a very goodlooking man in his early thirties and he is still single... what hope is there for the rest of us... sigh sigh sigh
He dives into his past sexcapades, failed romances and his variety of "fuck buddies and tricks..." In all honesty I found a huge sense of relief while reading the book... It almost feels like Bereznai is my gay-fairy-godfather... Everytime I read the book, I begin to understand a little bit more about what it's like to be in a relationship (a gay one...) and when it's like to not be in a relationship...

There many parts in the book, to which I have zero understanding off, e.g. his usage of drugs - which I detest - his very active sex life (which is exponentially more active than that of mine...) and his great array of queer friends (compared to my three bromo's)...

But over all the book is great and just finished with it...(again but with a lot more detail) I recomend it to anybody, gay or straight... It deals with a lot of other stuff, like the hierachy of love i.e. if you are single, you're at the bottom of the food chain... It dives into what really makes people tick - on the love front anyway... and it gives the gay Bridget Jones singletons like yours truely, a shit load of perspective...

God bless Steven Bereznai...

Here are just two of the MANY quotes that stood out to me:

1) "In this world a lot of emphasis is put on being "good enough" that someone might actually want to date you. In fact there's so much pressure there are at times when it's hard to remember that singlehood is not failurehood."

2) "It has been said that a gay person does not have a true friend until he comes out, for only then does he let his true self be seen."

Brilliant stuff...

I hope to meet him one day...

Mr Love Lace out... :)